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Prayer in worship on May 27

Spirit of God, on a day when we remember the outpouring of your Holy Spirit that called together a people and launched a movement and gave birth to the church, we are in awe that 2,000 years later there is still a people and that the movement continues to spread and that – in spite of everything – even the church exists, wounded in places, but resilient and faithful.

We’re grateful that your Spirit is still here among us and within us, and that we still see it at work, and that it still pushes us to learn and grow and demonstrate your love. We celebrate today a flame that still burns and a fire that cannot be quenched.

We also remember today women and men in our nation’s history, including many who sit in these pews today, who set aside personal dreams and goals, and instead put their country first, who fought and served, who demonstrated bravery and sacrifice, who allowed us to enjoy freedoms and opportunities that are still second to none in the world.  We are blessed people, and today we thank some of those who have made our good life possible.

God of healing and hope, we also take time today to remember the sick in our congregation, as well those in our families and in our circles of friends.  We remember those who have experienced loss and now find themselves dealing with grief.  We remember those who struggle with family and marriage in a way that robs life of its joy.   We pray for healing, of course, but we pray also for trust – the trust that you are God, that we are your children, and that nothing in all creation can ever separate us from your love in Christ Jesus our Lord.

And now, trusting that you hear all of the prayers offered here this morning, hear us now as we say with one, confident voice, “Our Father, who art in heaven, hallowed be Thy name….”

(prayer offered in worship on Sunday, May 27, 2012, Pentecost and Memorial Day Weekend)

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See you in September

One of the most gratifying areas of my ministry over the last two years has been found in an unexpected place – the church’s grief support group.

Leading a grief group wasn’t even in my job description when I started.  I just noticed a large number of grieving people in my church – women and men – and decided to offer a safe place twice each month for conversation, support, prayer, and (can you have a church meeting without them?) snacks.

And nearly two years later, to my surprise, we’re still going strong.

Yesterday we had our last meeting before taking a break for summer, and we promised to start again on the first Wednesday in September.  The thinking was that so many people go away for all or part of the summer that attendance becomes erratic.  Better to close it down for the summer and start up again in the fall.

I was wrong, as I often am about these things.

Our turnout yesterday was nearly the best of the year, second only to the Wednesday just before Christmas, which is traditionally a tough time for people who are grieving.

What happened yesterday?  I’m not sure. Our regulars were there, of course, but so were some new people – not even church members, but a few people who had heard about the group and decided to give it a try.

The meeting yesterday might have been the best one of the year.  We talked, as we always do, we told stories, we read some words for each other that we had come across and liked, we cried, and – you might not believe this – we also laughed.

Anyone walking by our meeting room yesterday might have been surprised by all of the laughter.  Really?  That’s a grief group?

I wasn’t prepared for it, either, but laughter has become a regular part of our group life.  I hear laughter at funerals, so I know that when people tell stories about loved ones who have died there is bound to be some humor.  What I hadn’t expected was to see and hear people with raw feelings of grief suddenly give in to laughter.  For many of them it’s the first real laughter they’ve experienced since the death that plunged them into grief.

What have I learned after two years of listening to people in grief?  More than I can write in one blogpost, certainly, but here’s one thing that comes to mind: no two people grieve in exactly the same way.  Grief is different for everyone. My response to loss is going to be different from yours. And yours will be different from mine.

I suppose I had expected some rules and patterns to emerge – like the Elisabeth Kubler-Ross formula of denial, anger, bargaining, depression and acceptance.

But the surprise (to me) is that no pattern fits everyone.  We are all, apparently, as different in our grief as our fingerprints and our DNA.  Some of us grieve long and deep. Some members of the group experienced their loss four or five years ago and still need to talk about what has happened to them.  Others, in contrast, seem to bounce back relatively fast.

What may be a common experience for everyone who grieves is the need to acknowledge – to someone – the deep pain of it all, the emptiness that will never, ever be filled again, and the sadness that no amount of comfort will take away.

One member of the group has said to me that he had tried a grief group sponsored by a local hospice, but that he quickly found it unsatisfying because there was no faith component.  My group definitely has a faith component.  We open and close in prayer, of course.  And not surprisingly, we talk about our faith – sometimes about how our faith is tested by suffering and death, but more often about how our faith comforts and gives hope.  Faith is both in the background and at the center of our times together.

I learned long ago that people who grieve are at their most vulnerable – and therefore their most authentic, most honest, most transparent.  When we grieve, everything else is stripped away. Putting up a front is nearly impossible for a person in grief.  And the result in many ways is wonderful.  I find myself wanting to be with these people.

As I write this, September seems a long way away.

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Saying Good-bye

I attended what may have been my worst presbytery meeting ever this week, and after more than 30 years of attending presbytery meetings, that’s saying something.

What made the meeting sad and difficult was that the Presbytery of Tropical Florida “dismissed” nine congregations, their pastors, and all of their property (conservatively worth more than $17 million) to other “Reformed bodies.”  What all of that ecclesiastical language means is that our presbytery said good-bye to nine congregations who in the weeks to come will become part of other denominations.

In personal terms, I said good-bye to nine gifted colleagues, many of whom have become my friends.

Forty-five congregations remain in the presbytery…for now.

Most of the departing congregations will end up in something called the Covenant Order of Evangelical Presbyterians, which was formed last January.  For more information about that body, here’s a link: http://www.fellowship-pres.org/eco/

In nearly every case, the congregations who left the presbytery – and therefore the Presbyterian Church (U.S.A.) – explained that their former denomination had moved in a direction that no longer felt comfortable to them. And last summer’s change to the Book of Order – allowing the ordination of gays and lesbians – was for them the last straw.   Requesting dismissal was for them an act of conscience.

I hesitate to write about this situation for a number of reasons, but chief among them is that most people don’t know what a denomination is, or what a presbytery is, and furthermore don’t care.  Most people who are members of First Presbyterian Church are (blissfully?) unaware that they are part of a larger body of Christian churches.  Most of us came to this church because we loved the people here, or the music, or the preaching. Denominational affiliation is hardly ever a factor in someone’s decision to join a church.

However, the article that appeared Tuesday morning in our local newspaper, the Sun-Sentinel, calls for some explanation and reflection.

Our presbytery, it should be noted, has been hit harder than most.  Most presbyteries are in the process of dismissing a congregation or two; very few will experience the sort of loss that our presbytery experienced this week.  In a denomination of around 2 million members and more than 10,000 congregations, the overall statistical loss is not expected to be significant.

But this is about more than numbers.

As I work my way through the sadness I experienced on Tuesday, I feel some hope.  Nearly every presbytery meeting I attended over the last three years was characterized by conflict – sometimes overt, though more often it was just beneath the surface.  We were so clearly not of one mind about how to do the business of the church. It was always there.  And at times it was debilitating.

So, the departure of these nine congregations is expected to lessen the conflict.  We will finally be able to get on with the business of being the church.

I believe that the church’s mission is larger than whatever issue popular culture happens to be wrestling with at any given time.  Right now our culture is wrestling with the issue of sexual orientation, and that conflict is almost inevitably played out within the church. Within my lifetime I have listened as the church has argued about the role of women, abortion, capital punishment, nuclear proliferation, immigration, the Israeli-Palestinian conflict, and a host of other divisive issues.

My hope has been (and continues to be) that as a church we will model something better to the culture around us.  Rather than dividing ourselves along ideological lines, I continue to hope for a church that wants to serve Jesus Christ, first of all, and to find a way to stay together in times of division and conflict.

I do not believe we should ignore our differences.  I support thoughtful and respectful conversation.  And I think the most difficult position to hold is the one we have right now – namely, our determination to be one, a body of believers who are committed to the work that Jesus Christ has called us to.

When people ask me when our church is going to take a stand, this is what I say: “We have taken a stand, and that stand is to stay together, despite our differences, to model something different from the rest of culture.  Separating is the easier choice.  Finding a way to stay together – now that takes courage and hard work!”

Allow me to end – though I am aware that much more could be written – with a personal note.  One of the reasons for the sadness I felt this week is that my ties to the Presbyterian Church run very deep.  I was not raised a Presbyterian, but as a young adult, when I most needed it, I suddenly found myself embraced and welcomed by the Presbyterian Church.  And I have not forgotten the grace I found within this denomination, the kind of grace that has allowed me more than 30 years of ministry.

But that isn’t all.  Not long ago my older daughter was ordained to the ministry of word and sacrament in the Presbyterian Church (U.S.A.).  My daughter serves a congregation that is strong and vital, one that not only proclaims the gospel, but lives it out in its mission and ministry.  So, my ties to this denomination now run through my own family.

I am hopeful for our future.  I do not make that statement lightly.  I see the obstacles plainly.  But I continue to do my work convinced that the ministry of this church is larger than, and more important than, what divides us today.

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